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"Sana ‘di na lang ako bumalik para I’m the one that got away. Now, you’re the one that got away. And..."

Tue, 07 May 2013 11:00:31 -0400

““Sana ‘di na lang ako bumalik para I’m the one that got away. Now, you’re the one that got away. And I’m just the girl you chose to let go.””

Gap farm park :) #potd #park #statues #manmade (at Davao City)

Mon, 06 May 2013 03:13:41 -0400

Gap farm park :) #potd #park #statues #manmade (at Davao City)

Cause it's time to leave those feelings behind.

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:49:59 -0400

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you or the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with the things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it’s time. Don’t hang onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of the things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love, fall out of love, fall in love, fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things, tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to its full potential. Just live it. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and fucking live. And one day when you’re old, look back with no regrets. :)

NOTE TO SELF :)

Because I have nothing to do. :) #doodle #art (at Starbucks...

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 09:31:36 -0400

Because I have nothing to do. :) #doodle #art (at Starbucks Coffee)

Stuck in someone's mixtape

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 13:10:00 -0400

I rarely do this. It’s exactly 2:11am on the clock as I write. I know I should be sleeping but I’m not. Instead, I have the strongest urge to blog tonight.

Everyone kept saying that sleeping early is good for the health, and skin. But I guess the most useful thing sleeping early gives us is that we can get away from all the negative stuffs that likes to wrap itself around you in the middle of the night. It’s when everything is quiet that my mind wanders to things I normally do not have time to entertain and think about during the day. I mean, who has the time to lay in their bed, stare blankly at the ceiling, and pout? Go ahead and say these insomniac trains of thought are not relevant, but you’ll be surprised. They actually are the very things that made you see differently as soon as the sun hits your eyes the morning after.

Have you tried doing or thinking about something repeatedly for the nth time? Your brain on autopilot. Just letting things and thoughts fall where they may, and simply letting them be. For many people, they realize this unexpectedly. I realized mine, just tonight, while listening to a certain someone’s mixtape.

Here are my thoughts:

It was the night of February 8, 2013 when I first met face to face this, not very familiar boy on a dainty city called Cagayan de Oro. Hours before that encounter I honestly didn’t know what to feel. I was happy, confused and nervous at the same time. I didn’t know why I felt like that—all those roller coaster of emotions. I’m really not sure of anything just yet, but I do know that even though that person I’m meeting wasn’t very familiar, I knew he was special to me.

The next three days we’re indeed something I’ve never known. It was special. Unexpected. I was never serious when it comes to things like this. I honestly thought I had an attitude problem, not taking anything seriously, taking everything as a joke. But, you know that moment when you feel something you knew never hit you before? I knew then that I was having a smitten mental breakdown, that’s probably gross to most people. I didn’t care though. I was determined to savor each moment with this person who was once, and very briefly, very special to me. I didn’t really want to let him know that, but what the hell, right? I’m sharing anyway, so might as well spill it all.

I remember it all. The first look, the first laugh, the first conversation, the breath-taking rush of the first kiss. Introducing him to my friends and watching them all get along, like I just knew they would. I remember how addicting his smell was and how I’d wanted to revel in the uncertainty of that moment. It was an experience I wish I could put in a tiny, secret box so I could take it out and look at it anytime I wanted. Everything was, for me, perfect.

But then life happens. Many days and weeks had passed and I didn’t realize we we’re slipping away. I don’t exactly know how or why. But days passed, and all I got was nothing. It was then that I realized that he didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. I felt disappointed. And with that I went on with my life. I really wanted that person to say things to me straight, you’re either a part of my life, or not. There’s no grey area for you to stay in forever.

I don’t even know if he’s still thinking of me to this day, or how he will react when he reads this. There are a lot of things I’m not sure of really… except my feelings for him. I’m pretty sure meeting him was one of the best things that happened to me this year. We could be strangers tomorrow, but right now I’d like to revel in the uncertainty in between us. Some things aren’t meant to last, and I should’ve known. But I’m still grateful for him, for the wonderful time. And right now, I still chose to give him the benefit of the doubt.

Trying to recover from my calculus exam. I think nagkabrain...

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 23:44:43 -0400

Trying to recover from my calculus exam. I think nagkabrain damage ko. Hahaha. Now studying for physics. #dying (at Bo’s Coffee)

Titanium Cover. :) Too lazy to look for an acoustic instrumental...

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 10:51:21 -0400

Titanium Cover. :) Too lazy to look for an acoustic instrumental for this song so Acapella nalang

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Sat, 02 Mar 2013 09:10:18 -0500

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Sat, 02 Mar 2013 09:04:01 -0500

"My heart, it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it..."

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 08:54:24 -0500

“My heart, it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange—no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me, too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.”

- (via thelovewhisperer)

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Sat, 02 Mar 2013 08:54:11 -0500

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Wed, 13 Feb 2013 06:31:42 -0500

"Of course there’s something there; unfortunately, there’s always something ‘there.’ Something you..."

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 01:49:57 -0500

“Of course there’s something there; unfortunately, there’s always something ‘there.’ Something you will one day be sorry you saw.”

- Mary Gaitskill, Veronica (via larmoyante)

"Don’t compromise yourself. You’re all you’ve got."

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 07:45:41 -0500

“Don’t compromise yourself. You’re all you’ve got.”

- Janis Joplin (via anditslove)

"In the end, it’s not the changes that will break your heart; it’s that tug of familiarity."

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:26:51 -0500

“In the end, it’s not the changes that will break your heart; it’s that tug of familiarity.”

- The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight by Jennifer E. Smith (via adventuresofatinyspeck)

It's the little things you do that makes me fall a little harder.

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 05:50:50 -0500

You meet someone. You two get close. It’s all great for awhile. Then someone stops trying. Talk less. Awkward conversations. The drifting. No communication whatsoever. Memories start to fade. Then that person you know becomes that person you KNEW. That’s how it usually goes. Sad isn’t it?

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Tue, 15 Jan 2013 22:46:06 -0500

"It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out..."

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 07:35:33 -0500

“It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out what you’re willing to give up in order to do the things you really care about.”

- “Bittersweet” by Shauna Niequist (via kari-shma)

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Fri, 11 Jan 2013 07:30:50 -0500

Behind the scenes of our photoshoot yesterday. With my pretty...

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 07:01:03 -0500

Behind the scenes of our photoshoot yesterday.

With my pretty friend Angel. <3

We had fun working with one of the most Renowned photographers in Butuan. :)